Saturday, September 15, 2018

Admitting the Truth!

Being truthful and honest is so very important to me...
I hate to be lied too...
and consider myself an honest person

BUT 

in the last few weeks I was being dishonest
with myself!!!

As most of you know
I have Type 2 Diabetes,
seem to be constantly on a diet
of some sort

and yet two weeks ago 
I had a little come to Jesus meeting with myself

I was in the frame of mind
"I DON'T CARE"
about what I was eating,
how I was eating,
or when I was eating.

I also spend a lot of money on 
medication to keep my diabetes in check

AND YET
in reality
I was sabotaging myself,
hurting myself
and wasting a lot of money

and hurting not only myself
but in the long run would be hurting those I care the most about

and so I had this little 
 "come to Jesus meeting with myself"

and thought back to 10 years ago
when I was suicidal,
struggling with feeling okay with myself,
loving myself
and caring about myself

and I took
"suicide" off the table
forever!!!

And realized that
self-destructive behavior
appears in many different forms
and the way I was eating
was a form of self-destructive behavior
and I took it off the table so many years ago
but here it was 
once again, just in a different form

and it had to come off the table
again, forever!!!

And so I shared with a friend,
that my Blood Sugar numbers had been high
and I knew why and I had to stop.
No one can do it for me,
but me.

So six days ago I made the commitment
to stop eating when I go to bed...
yes, I could eat 2 cups of pretzels
or bags of chips or licorice or ????

and I told my friend
to ask me any time
and so for the last six nights I have not 
eaten anything when I've gone to bed!!!

And God has blessed me in that
my BS numbers have been right where they
need to be and I'm feeling better
not only physically
but emotionally
and 

thankful that I was able to recognize,
acknowledge
and change my negative behavior.  

And that leads right into
what I feel the Lord
has been challenging me to be and to see

POSITIVE
in my language
in my actions
in my behaviors

So today I am thankful
to acknowledge
how much the Lord loves me

He gives me second chances,
and He blesses me over and over!!!

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And He allows me to bless others and not know the why and how
and then He shows me...

Two weeks ago we found out that one of our drivers was a new
Grandpa to a baby girl and so I quickly got busy and made
 for Juan and his grandbaby girl.

I was able to give Juan the blanket this morning
and he started crying, his wife has carpel tunnel
and is not able to crochet anymore and had said to him she wished
she had a baby girl blanket to give their new grandbaby...
now how cool is that that God led me to make that
blanket and its an answer to someone else's prayer!!!

God is so Good!!!!!!












Saturday, August 25, 2018

What's Up?

Hey there!!

What's Up with the Workentin's??

~ Ron saw the oncologist yesterday ~ goes back in 4 months!!!  Doctor is pleased at the healing process, reminded Ron to remain friends with the Big T and see you in 4 months!!!  Best news ever!!!

~ Decisions ~ with the expenses of Ron's surgery/medical care we have decided to stay in the Oil Patch thru April 27, 2019 so that we can pay off all our bills (old & new) before we get back on the road).  It was not the easiest of decisions has we were so looking forward to being in San Diego for Max graduation from Marine Basic Training, seeing family and friends in Arizona, California, Oregon and Washington, being in Blaine for Thanksgiving and Florida for Christmas
BUT
we are thankful for this job we have during this season of life
and so we have decided to stay put for another 8 months.

This works great too for follow up for Ron's doctor appointments!!!
Ron sees the oncologist the end of December,
the surgeon in February
and will probably see both of them again in April before we hit the road.

~ One of the things that Ron enjoys doing is
planning trips.
Right now he has us traveling for 146 days!!! Leaving Pecos on April 28, 2019

I have been keeping busy working on different crochet projects:
made a headband for one of the drivers little girl,
working on a tank top for me,
dish cloths ~ donated 6 to an auction for a friends church,
made a lap blanket ~ sending that one to Whatcom County Hospice
planning projects for the future:
(some to sell, some as gifts)
If you would like to order something to be made, 
let me know, prices upon request
2 tank tops for friends ~ 
twin size blanket for a friends daughter ~ 
more dishcloths ~  
more headbands ~ 
pony tail beanie caps ~ 
beanie hats ~ 
pony tail holders ~ 
Christmas ornaments ~
lap blankets (rectangle or square) ~
baby blankets ~
guess that will keep me busy for awhile.

Take care, 
remember to smile
and keep trusting God in all things!!!!



Saturday, August 11, 2018

Memories

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Memories
they come and go,
sometimes expected, sometimes not

This week in August
is always full of memories,
some that just envelope me in warmth
and others where the tears run freely

We celebrate the birthday of Jamie.

Jamie at 5 Weeks.

Jamie at 1 Year

Jamie, SR Year of High School

Lots of memories, most of them happy,
some scary ~ like when he had his first seizure at 15 months,
some frustrating ~ like when he skipped school and got into a car accident,
some delightful ~ being a part of his wedding and the birth of his daughter,
memories!!

Hard to believe that our little 3 lb 12 oz, 19 3/4" baby boy,
long and skinny
is now 41 years old, married, has a daughter,
owns his own home,
and brings lots of joy to his family.

Memories of a sad/difficult time
Our precious baby boy,
Royce Alan
was only with us for three short days.
Hard to believe it has been 41 years since
we have seen his dark hair, chubby cheeks,
he weighed in at 4lbs 8oz, 18"
his own little being
or even been able to give a hug or a kiss.
We miss him every day.
And we cherish those three days of memories.

This morning
I opened my scripture for the day
and this popped up.

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We have traveled some dark and difficult days
but through it all
Jesus has guided our steps,
walked with us,
carried us
and planted us where we need to be 
for every given moment.

And for that we are very thankful.

We love you Royce!!!

And we are so thankful for our family
Treyson, Brandon, Ron, Ali, Alexander, Jamie, Opal
down front, Christopher
(missing Suzanne and Danalyn ~ our two daughters in love)

Max
High School SR 2017

What are you thankful for today?

Friday, August 10, 2018

God's Timing

I get a picture scripture every morning and this morning this showed up in my email:
Logos.com
And immediately I felt warm cuddles from my Abba Father!!!

God's timing is perfect....

Yesterday I got a note from a sweet friend that said she had been thinking about me as she knows this week is not an easy time for me.

God's timing is perfect....

In the wee hours of the morning on Tuesday,
we got a phone call from our son, Jamie.
His 41st birthday!

He always calls us as soon as he gets up
and sometimes even at the minute he was born...
one special memory was I was in the hospital with pneumonia,
Jamie was in Iraq
and my cell phone vibrated at 2:41 am
August, 8
and it was Jamie!!!
He didn't know I was in the hospital
but he knew he wanted to call me for his birthday!!

God's timing is perfect....

I received an email earlier in the week from another dear friend,
saying I had been pretty quiet lately...
yeah...
I think I have been recuperating in my own way
from the emotional and physical roller coaster
we have been on for the past two months.

God's timing is perfect....

This time of year is full of ambivalent emotions...
we celebrate the birthday of Jamie,
hard to believe that little baby boy,
born 8 1/2 weeks early
is now a 41 year old 
healthy, happy, husband and dad!!

And yet at the same time,
tears are on the edge,
thinking of Royce,
who will always be a baby in our heart,
only here for a short time,
but an impact on our life just the same.
And we wonder what type of man he would be today.

and so
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we mourn for the loss of our precious baby,
comforted to know that he rests in the arms of Jesus.

And we celebrate the life of Jamie,
and all he has accomplished!!!

we are blessed beyond measure!!!!

Monday, July 30, 2018

Seeing is Believing!!!

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Living our Life 
always seems to have it's challenges
but doesn't everyone?

It is hard to believe that 
we have been married for 42 1/2 years...
who would have thunk?

We know a few people who didn't think our marriage would last
but we did!!!
How you ask??

Because just over 42 years ago,
Ron and I gave our marriage to the Lord,
in the back of our little red pickup.
I would say Datsun but some of you wouldn't have a clue what a Datsun was.

Just know it was a small little pickup
sort of like this one,
though ours was red with a raised canopy on it
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we liked that little red truck

except of course when Ron's brother, John along with a few other friends put it up on blocks on our wedding day!!!

And because of God,
our love for God 
and our love for each other
we have been married 42+ years!!!

When we moved to Waco, TX in Summer of 2016 we had our "5 year plan"
work for 5 years, 
buy another motor home
and get  back to full time RV living.

Well that was our plan,
but not necessarily God's plan.

When we lost our job at MCH in October 2017 we decided to go back to full time RV living then, we had the trailer
and so that is what we did!!

We began applying for workamping type jobs; you know at campgrounds.  Ron was done with being a home parent and neither of us really wanted to go back to being managers of a 55+ community...heck we could live in one if we wanted too!!

So we accepted a job at Hi~Road Campground in Mt. Carmel, UT just outside of Zion National Park.
We planned to be there through October 2018
One of the many beautiful views from our trailer.
But working in the high altitude,
doing a job we weren't hired to do,
we felt it was time to move on.

So back to Texas we headed
as Gate Guards!!!
the blue dot is where we are located.
On the corner of 516 & 3398 in Barstow, TX
where there is dust, dust and more dust!!!

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And it is the perfect place for us,
for today,
for such a time as this.

You see,
this is the easiest job we could ever ask for 
especially with what we have faced in the last 55 days.

When we first found out Ron had breast cancer and had to have surgery,
our minds did wonder how it would affect our job.
But we couldn't have asked to have a better job 
for such a time as this.

The surgeon asked Ron if he did any lifting for his job.
Ron replied "I pick up a clipboard, a few pieces of paper, a pencil and then take about 250 steps, give or take 10 or so, write down what truck has pulled in, filled in some boxes and walk back the 250 steps or so to our little home on wheels.

She told Ron "that's perfect, once you stop taking pain pills you can go back to work."

Ron has surgery on 
Wednesday, July 18,
recuperated for about 24 hours
and then we returned to our little home on wheels
and relaxed and slept for the next two days.

On Sunday, July 22
Ron returned to work
moving a bit slower,
but working and we are so thankful
for the job that the Lord opened the door for us
to be here in Texas
as such a time as this...
...being able to work and rest as needed while recuperating from 
his surgery!!!

and for that we give 
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because

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and 
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And so we can say without a doubt,
that each and every day we see how
God is taking care of us,
providing for us, 
and we will continue to trust and believe in HIM
and

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We are blessed beyond measure
and are so thankful 
that Ron continues to recover from his surgery
and we look forward to see
where 
God 
will 
lead 
us 
next!!!

Pondering...Part III

YET

I continue to wonder

what is it God would want me to learn from this journey,
this journey of the past 55 days
and as they continue in the days and weeks to come

to be INTENTIONAL,
to be FLEXIBLE,
to LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY
to TRUST in HIM
to GIVE THANKS

not only for the big things...
Ron is CANCER FREE!!!!!!

but also for the little things
22 friends who have given financially to us
as that is one BIG THING - being able to pay the oncologist on the day of the appointment and save 25% of the bill!!!

to buy lots of fresh fruit and veggies,
to have gas to make it to the various doctor appointments,
on the horizon Ron sees the surgeon this week and next, the oncologist again in three weeks - and we have the gas money for every one of those visits

to be KIND to those we meet each day,
to SHARE what we have been blessed with with others,
to LOVE one another, cherishing each smile,
each email, each note, each phone call
to be THANKFUL for another day to enjoy God's creation

just as Christ tells us
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remember 

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and

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with that
I want to say
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Pondering...Part II

As I continue to sit here and listen to the hum of the fan,
I felt something land in my bra (I know you can picture me...wanting to scream but I can't as I don't want to wake up Ron) so I frantically feel around, pull at my shirt, can't find anything BUT I know something went down there,
then I feel it, I shake it out and it falls on the tablet,
I try to squish it, it doesn't want to die,
so I push hard with the thumb and hear and feel it at the same time
SQUISH!!!!

Not sure what it was, it's not a fly,
not a bee,
but it has wings, over 1/2" long
and now it is staring back at me,
but it's dead so I can get back to where I left off...

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YET
WONDER

DO NOT misinterpret what I am going to be writing,
this is from my heart, deep in the recesses of my mind,
we are so thankful for the many prayers that have been said on our behalf,
for the money that has been sent to help us out
YET
STILL WONDER

where has everyone gone???

Facebook says I have 473 friends,
Ron's Facebook says he has 226 friends
and we have 124 mutual friends
that's a total of 575 friends between the two of us,
and that's just on Facebook

what about friends who aren't on Facebook?
friends made along the journey of life,
friends from the military we still keep in touch with,
friends from the many churches we have attended and been a part of,
friends from all the different jobs we have had over the years,
friends we have connected with due to different circumstances in our lives
~~ births of children
~~ death of children
~~ common ground ~ RV'ing, writing, 4-wheeling 
~~ schooling

I think you get the picture

so many have prayed for us and with us
and we are so thankful

and then I wonder
AM I BEING SELFISH?

IS IT ME? OR IS IT THEM?

so many say
"let me know if there is something I/we can do"

and yet we only hear from a handful of people

Yes we live a very non~traditional life,
we are not physically surrounded by friends and family,
our family is spread across many states 
and we have friends in many more states,

I don't want to sound ungrateful
because I'm not
I'm just confused
especially by those who specifically say
"let me know if there is something I/we can do" 
and then we don't hear from them again

this journey we have been on the last 55 days
has me thinking about my own life,
about the things I say to people,

like
"I will pray for XXX"
yes, I usually send up an arrow prayer,
you know the ones sent in haste just so I can say I prayed for XXX

about when I say
"let me know if there is something I/we can do"
do I really mean it?
do I follow up?

sometimes yes, often times not,
so why does it bother me so much that people have said
"let me know if there is something I/we can do"

I know why or at least I think I know why
because
we get busy with life,
we don't know exactly what to do,
because in reality we are selfish beings,

I was chatting with a friend earlier tonight
and one thing she said is that most people don't intend to not do what they say they will or want to do.
but life gets in the way.

Life just gets in the way.

Ron has asked many times over the past weeks
"I don't know why this has happened to me, but I know there is a reason"

I have wondered to, 
why? how come?  

we may never know
but I do know
that one thing I have learned over the past few weeks
and have been reminded of
is 
I/we need to be more intentional
with the words we say
and the things we do.  

If I ask someone,
how can I help?
I need to be able to follow through with their request

Not just offer because it sounds good
or it's the right thing to say

if I can't be ready to fulfill their request,
I shouldn't ask how can I help
instead 
I should say
may I do XXX for you??

XXX could be say a prayer,
fix a meal or buy a meal,
pick up some groceries,
send a note of encouragement,
send $$...I know one person said to me,
money is tight but here's $20,
and that's how I want to be,
to be able to give a little because all the little's add up to one big lots!!!

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Admitting the Truth!

Being truthful and honest is so very important to me... I hate to be lied too... and consider myself an honest person BUT  in t...