Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Gate Guarding ~ What's Happening??

We did our first gig of gate guarding at
McCamey, TX.

It took a bit of adjustments 
but we got a little schedule going.

We worked there from Friday, May 11 to
Tuesday  morning, May 14

when we moved to the 
Pecos Yard for one night.

And par for us ~ our plans changed once again...
Wednesday morning we were informed that we would not be going to Wink or to Orla 2 but instead be going to Barstow, TX
which is about 7 miles from Pecos, TX

So off to do laundry,
run some errands and then we were off to Barstow

The little blue dot is where we are and will be 
through the end of September
(well that's the plan anyway)

This is the view out our back window...
all the trucks must come through right here so when
it's hot outside we can sit in the coolness of 
our little home on wheels.

this was our first sunset on 
Thursday, May 17. 2018

and another view from our rig!

Our schedule sort of goes like this ~~~

A ~ work from Midnight/1 am to 7/8 am
R ~ work from 7/8 to 2/3 pm
A ~ I take a nap from 7/8 to about 10; then make brunch for us, take another nap from about noon to 2
A ~ I work from 2/3 till about 6 pm
R ~ takes a nap during that time
A ~ makes dinner about 6 (tonight I am making lazy man's lasagna in the crock pot (will put it on after I make breakfast 😀)
R ~ works till midnight or so

So far it is working well.  During the midnight shift I do the computer work entering all the logs into Excel; email it to the office by 8:30 am (before I go lay down)

Our goal during the next few months is to work, not spend money and save $$

We have lots to do ~ reading, writing, Ron is scanning all of our pictures; I am taking my journals and putting them on the computer - still thinking I would like to write a book and this is one of the first steps, I am also crocheting - trying to make things using up my stash of yarn - thinking of going of going to sell things through friends and make gifts.

Right now I have a lot of cotton yarn for making dish cloths.  Ron came up with a suggestion to make a set of placemats, coasters and a couple of pot holders.  So thinking I might do that.

Ron also has a couple of projects on the trailer for this summer ~ reseal the roof, build some cupboards in our closets and also making our pantry a little more user friendly (it is very deep so awkward to get stuff from the back)

Well those are the projects we have thought about doing.
I say that, 
because I have talked with a couple of people who 
have been doing gate guarding for awhile
who had projects they were going to do
and have yet to begin!!!

So we will see.

Anyway, here's a glimpse of 
our life of gate guarding!!

Well the first week anyway!!!

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

New Adventure ~ Gate Guarding ~ McCamey, TX

We have begun another new adventure, makes our name
The Wandering Workentins

We have just completed our first gate
McCamey, TX

 Not sure why I can't get all the pictures off my phone
I'm sure it is owner/operator

but here is the sky from the yard from earlier today.

This job started has stretched us in some ways
~ figuring new schedules
~ living with lots of dust
~ not going for drives
~ lots of quiet time

At moments it seems like this will be a good thing,
other times the mind 
wonders can I survive this?

I can tell in my writing that 
I'm a bit displaced
as I can't seem to gather my thoughts
to put things in order

So as I would tell my bestie
"this is me rambling"
not sure what I want to say
but want those, if anyone,
who reads this blog
to know we are fine,
we are trying new things
and will continue
to keep moving forward.

Maybe after the second week
the thoughts will come together.

So on that note,
stay tuned!!!

Monday, May 7, 2018

Struggling and Holding On

As I sit here looking at the beautiful scenery here at
Valley of Fires
I wonder how I can feel so down.

I am thankful for a friends message this morning
and felt encouraged.

Emailed my bestie,
felt encouraged,

Wrote a note to a special someone
and ended up in tears 
and am now wising I could take back my note
because, just because!

A friend mentioned a word study they are doing,
said I could buy it on Amazon
well not really,
no money
and having to 
watch where every penny is going right now.

Tears streaming down my face,
want to run and hide,
want to cry out in hurting pain,
and then tell myself to 
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And get off the Pity Party Train!!!

Friday, May 4, 2018

Honest Truth ~ Part 3!! And HOPE!!!

As I fell asleep last night,
I found myself praying,
Lord, I trust you
just right now it is so hard!!!

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And claimed my life verse

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and fell fast asleep.
I woke up a couple of times,
but went right back to sleep.

Woke up at 7:30 this morning,
feeling refreshed.
Quietly got out of bed and went into the living room,
pulled out my Bible,
my devotional journal,
my pens
and opened 
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May 4
and read the title
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and started laughing and crying!!
God you are so Awesome!!!
You always meet me right where I am!!

And so I colored
and I read, 
I cried
and felt comforted!!!

Things may be hard right now
GOD has me right where I belong!!!
Right where I need to be!!!

And nothing I am going through,
he doesn't already know about!!!

Thank you Lord
for this new day!!!
For a husband who loves me!!!
And for every adventure 
You lead me on!!!

Is life perfect?
No not at all!!!
But it's okay,
I will be okay,
I am okay!!!

With God I can conquer anything!!!
The next few weeks may be hard,
that's okay,
we've faced hard before
but we will get through this!!!

And through it all 
I will give God the glory!!!

Now let's go visit that
Ghost Town!!!

Honest Truth!! ~ Part 2

Thursday, May 3
wasn't much better.

Didn't sleep well,
tossed and turned,
talked to God,
wondered why ~ does it do any good?

Felt the wind blow some more,
the trailer was rocking
and it was not fun!!!

Ron said,
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I didn't want to.
I was having a pity party.
Feeling like life was horrible
Asking what was the use?

But off we went.
Drove about five miles into town to find a grocery store.
town looks pretty desolate,
found a gas station,
houses look dilapidated
windy and dusty
didn't say much to each other
did notice one pretty house
found a little store,
bought a loaf of bread,
a bag of chips
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for me

and a 
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for Ron

Drove back to the trailer,
made home made chicken noodle soup
not really,
took a bag out of the freezer
and reheated it up.
Added some more noodles

And watched TV on the broken TV.

Ron mentioned going to a ghost town on Friday
~ how we have no money!!!
means no gas
need what little we have to get us to Texas in two weeks!!!
More silence!!!

Played solitaire and puzzles on my phone
and went to bed about 10:00 pm.

Might as well,
it's free
and I can!!!

Honest Truth!!

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And the last two days have been just those kind of days.

And sometimes we make
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Last week while in Las Vegas we got a couple of phone calls 
that led us to believe we needed to hurry and get to Texas
so we changed our plans and left
Las Vegas Thousand Trails on
Tuesday, May 1.

We drove and drove and end up here
for the night.
The price was right,
sleep was horrible
and we found out we have to plan better for boondocking,
whether it be for one night or many!!!
We didn't eat right, we were both grumpy
and we were tired when we got back on the road on
Wednesday, May 2 at 

We stopped and got gas and found a cute little cafe
and ate an okay breakfast.

And then we drove and drove some more.
Tension was high
and it was not a fun drive.

We called Val (our contact in Texas for our next job)
and found out we don't have to be there till 5/26!!!

First wrong decision ~ should have called her before leaving Las Vegas, should have stayed in Las Vegas at Thousand Trails ~ free camping, beautiful weather, happy memories, lots of things to do for free
that's not what happened.

We drove and drove,
it was windy!!!
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which makes for a difficult day of driving,
short tempers,
and lots of silence in the car.

We ended up here
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It is a nice campground.  We have water and electric for $9
per night (thank goodness for Ron's old man pass)
So we have decided to hang out here for a week.

Cheap housing $63 for a week!!!

We got parked
and started setting up the camp
~ did I say life sucks sometimes ~
well it continued.

Ron bought me a stained glass/metal pig
and it shattered!!

Opened the trailer, 
one of my ceramic pigs was shattered on the floor,
one pig canister was upside down on the floor, broken,
my earrings had fallen off the wall into the sink,
sending earrings on the floor, behind the cupboard,
the bar door opened, spilled wine!!

And I just cried!!!
Oh, and I forgot to hook the TV before closing the slide
and now the TV has a big crack right down the center!!!

I wanted to scream, 
OK I did scream,
through a box out the door,
cried and swore!!
Life was really sucky!!!
I sent a text to my bestie
"I've had enough"
I posted on Facebook
"I quit, I'm done"
and then promptly deleted it,
but not before two people commented
"what's wrong?"

Ron set up the outside of the trailer.
I slowly got the inside of the trailer organized,
well not organized, but liveable.

And I cried on the inside,
on the outside
and wanted to just give up!!!
Even made a comment to Ron that I haven't made in years!!!

And then I curled up in a ball,
ate a bag of popcorn,
played a game on my phone
and took a nap.

And that was just Wednesday!!!

Monday, April 30, 2018

Why do I/We keep asking?

The following questions were posted by my sweet 2nd cousin by marriage, Rachel.

What words are there left to use when the one person who should get you the most doesn’t? What is left to say when you’ve tried all your life to be understood and still haven’t been? How do you keep putting your heart out, just to have it broken over and over? What can you do to be seen for who you are, nothing more, nothing less?

I asked her if I could share them and use them to jump into a blog post and she graciously said yes.

This was my reply, 

This is probably the hardest question we ask ourselves. I have asked this question so many times and eventually have to remember that Christ loves me for me, just the way I am and there is nothing I can say or do to change anyone's mind. I wish I could give you a big hug and make those people who you crave so much in your life understand who and what they are missing. I love you Rachel!!! And most importantly God loves you, Andy loves you and you are surrounded by so many friends who love and care about you!!! Sending big hugs!!!!

But the mind is now racing and I find myself wanting to write more...

I can't remember how many times I sat in my therapist's office, her home or our pastor's office and asked "Why doesn't she love me? What did I ever do to make her hate me so much?  How many times to I have to beg her to just love me, heck just like me?"  

First I find myself asking in regards to my mom?  Then my dad? Then my sister? And then I shed tears beyond measure wondering why I am so unloveable?  All I've ever wanted is for my mom to say she loved me.  For my dad to say he loved me, for my sister not to hate me but also those questions still go unanswered and as far as I know in this lifetime will never be answered.  

My mom is no longer here, she has been gone for almost 13 years, my dad it's been almost 17 and my sister has refused to speak to me since September 2008 ~ yes almost 10 years!!!  

I could drive myself crazy by asking these questions over and over.
In fact, I almost did!!!
I almost let the pain of the little girl growing up, being called "idiot child," "one of my three mistakes," and "problem child" win!!!

But with the love of my husband,
the love of my Abba Father, the love and care of
friends and some family members, therapists and counselors who did not give up on me,
the love of my son's, their sweet wives and the smiles of my grandchildren

I came to realize that there wasn't anything
I could do to make my mom love me, my dad smile in his eyes when he saw me,
or even get my sister to like me much less talk to me.

what I could do is be the woman 
God created me to be!!!
A woman who loves her husband,
even when he does stupid things
and yet loves me unconditionally, day in and day out,
when I have tried his patience to the end.
A mom and grammy who would do anything in her power 
to make her children and grandchildren smile and laugh
and know that no matter what they did or didn't do know
without a shadow of a doubt that they are loved!!!
And mean the world to me!!!

I am the woman God created.  
I am far from perfect
but I am genuine and I care with my whole being.

I love to make others smile,
I hate when people are hurting,
I cry at the drop of a hat,
laugh when I should cry,
swear when I shouldn't,
try to be an encourager
and yet still make mistakes and say stupid things

I don't try anymore to get people
to like me ~ either they do or they don't.
I make choices now based on what I feel is right,
what's right for me and my husband.
I say I'm sorry when I'm wrong
and probably even when I'm not.

I wish I could say I haven't asked myself 
the why? how come? what can I do?
in many years
but every once in awhile
I still ask, I wonder
and I even picture having that one more conversation with my sister
(she's the only one left)
and then I have to remember to 
and look at what I am:

I am blessed beyond measure!!!
I am loved by those who mean the most to me!!!

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So my sweet Rachel,
remember you are loved by many,
the many who bring you blessings,
who are about you
and know what a wonderful
woman, wife and mom
you are!!!

And the one think I remind myself of often,
their behavior and actions 
are their loss.

And we are 

Gate Guarding ~ What's Happening??

We did our first gig of gate guarding at McCamey, TX. It took a bit of adjustments  but we got a little schedule going. We work...