Reflections

Reflections

One of the pictures I took this week, not the best but do you see the reflection in the water?

It looks like this house is on fire

when in actuality it is the sun reflecting on the windows of a gorgeous home on Drayton Harbor;

the reflection looks like the bay is on fire too.

It's been a good week here in Blaine,

We have reconnected with many old friends, spent a bit of time with Jamie and his family, slept ~ a lot!!  One night my Flexbit told me I had slept 11 hours 11 minutes!! Ate way too much but enjoyed every bite.  Gave and received a lot of hugs, enjoyed some great jazz music, shared laughter and tears and just had an amazing week of relaxing and reflecting.

Woke up before 7:00 this morning ~ guess my body/mind knew there was much to be done this morning before getting on the road to continue this new adventure.  And then I think, "is it really a new adventure or just a continuation on a journey that has taken me places I would never have imagined ~ either way life is good and we are anxious, in a good kind of way to see what is around the next curve or down the straight long road.

One of the things I have enjoyed the most this week is the quiet and serene setting here at Pastor Charles & Margaret's home ~ it is like being at a park out in the woods.  I have seen little yellow rosebuds open into gorgeous yellow roses, deer eating the grass in the back yard and takenn a few two-hour naps in the peacefulness of the surroundings.

And then I think about a time when my life was anything but peaceful.

Anger ruled my life, spewing words to others that never should have happened, struggles with feeling loved and understanding the many hurts I experienced in my childhood and teen years.  It seems like a lifetime ago and maybe it is but really only 10 to 15 years.

And God reminds me that those struggles, that time in my life has made me who I am today.  This morning my verse for the day came from Psalm 73:26

In The Message it states

"When my skin sags and my bones get brittle, God is rock-firm and faithful."

And in my mind I picture my whole being, my heart, my soul, my physical body ~ ALL of me being surrounded by God and held by God and being comforted to know that HE always has his arms around me.  I see a picture that my friend Bev drew for me after I shared with her about one of my many counseling sessions.  I wish I could find the picture but I will just have to use words to describe it ~ A big chair, like a King's throne chair or even the chair the size Abe Lincoln is sitting in in Washington DC ~ but GOD is sitting in that chair and on his lap I sit, a young girl of 3 or 4, being held and comforted by the best Daddy in the world ~ that's how I see God: holding me on his lap, loving me in every way possible, reassuring me that He is always here for me, never to let me be alone in this world again.

And I feel all warm and loved!!

I am enough!  all the way around ~ I am enough.

With all the talk in today's world about Black Lives Matter ~ the world needs to realize

I don't want to get into a political debate, I say this because I am reminded this morning that each of us are important, each of us matter and most of all we matter to God!!!

And I thank him for that reminder this week ~ as we have sat and talked with people this week, as we have been preparing for this move to Texas and during my devotions this morning I am reminded

It's easy to love those who love you, those who are kind and nice to you

BUT

it is hard to love those who have hurt you, hurt me, said and done things to me that are uncalled for.

YET

God tells me I am to love them, be kind to them, not speak harshly of them

AND

so today I ask the Lord to give me words of love to say over them and to remember it is not my place to judge them or tell them what to do but to love on them.

And yes I am human and some days I find myself saying things or thinking of things I could do and that's when I get on my knees and tell Jesus I am sorry for failing once again.  And I know he hears my prayers because he helps me to see the good in the situation with those who have hurt me.  

Sorry for rambling, its just something I do once in a while or even a lot ~ as Ron likes to say I haven't met a word I didn't like and so I pour them out from my soul, getting all the hurt, pain and yuck from inside out to where I can acknowledge them and deal with them.

And I will stop now before I ramble on some more!!

Praying that all who read my blog have a blessed day and remember

You Are Enough!!!  

Just the Way You Are!!!