Beginning Again...

It seems I am always beginning again, starting over, taking the first step ~ you know the drill ~~ you get frustrated with something so you come up with a new plan.  It's a new week or a new month ~~ you know you pick the day, you pick the plan, you set your goals and then you 

BEGIN AGAIN!

And that's where I am today.

Starting a new race but this time it's a marathon not a sprint.

I have to admit my life has gotten out of control again and again and now it's time to change the course.

Today is a new day and once again, GOD met me right where I am!  

HE is so good about that.

I have been hitting and missing, missing more than hitting in my time with the Lord.  I let things get in the way, feeling like I have no time for me, so much on my plate and somehow God gets pushed aside.  Oh I pray, quick arrow prayers, as I am drifting off to sleep, when I'm in the shower but really spending time with the Lord ~ not so much lately.  

For the last week I have been putting things into place to get back on track, figured out an eating plan ~ hoping this time I can stick to it more than 5 days.  Found my devotional book that I am journaling in, bought the healthy foods and also good tasting foods ~ I know that's hard to do sometimes ~ healthy foods that taste good.  I've had a few talks with Ron ~ I need his help on this journey.  And talking to the Lord.

I got up this morning and weighed ~ UGH not as high as I have been in the past but almost 3 lbs over my SCARY point!!!  But it is what it is.  I fixed a bottle of water ~ I know for me, if I have water in a bottle I am more likely to drink it throughout the day.  My goal is 100 oz a day - that equals four of my water bottles.  If I look at it as four instead of a 100 it feels more manageable.  

I gathered my Bible, my pens (those who know me, know I have special pens for everything!) and got comfy in my chair in my little corner.  And opened my Bible to my daily devotion.  Today it was Galations 3:21~26.  Jesus tells us that HE welcomes all who come to Him.  By faith if we trust in Him, He will always be with me and I will always be his daughter!!!  I belong to Him!!!

And the second part of the devotion was found in Mark 4:35~5:1.  As I read this passage the word that coming to mind was

Metanoia ~ I first heard of this word from Tom, one of my many therapists, in the late 1980's ~ he told me it meant "turning around ~ purposefully changing course."   I remember doing my first word study with this word ~ I just haven't thought of it in a very long time. And yet it fits perfectly for today...today I start anew lifelong journey ~ and I know with the Lord's help, the love and support of my family and friends 

I can succeed in this journey of getting healthy.

I have much to live for

and much to do!!!

Thank you Lord for all the encouraging signs you sent my way this morning.

Also this morning, my sweet adopted daughter, Sarah, posted this on my Facebook page

Now how perfect is this song ~ just another message from the Lord that HE has my back, he has my life in His hands, and he is in control of this ship!!!

Thank you Sarah for sharing with me what the Lord put on your heart this morning.

Help me to keep my focus on you, trusting you, leaning on you and knowing not only in my heart but also in my head or is it not only in my head but also in my heart 

I CAN DO ALL THINGS 

THROUGH

YOU!!!

And thank you Lord for a loving and caring husband, 

who has shown me what true unconditional love is all about!!!