Suicide ~ no one talks about it ~ people do it

Once again, in the news another TV Personality, has taken his life.

RIP Anthony Boudain

No one talks about suicide,

but it happens

a lot!!

And people think about it a lot!!

I have thought about it often,

even came so close to following through

on more than one occasion

Thankfully

the Lord spoke to me in that split second

and I didn't.

This information is not news to my family

or close friends or even not so close friends.

It is a horrible place to be

feeling like there is no reason to live

that the world would be better off without me

I am so thankful for 

my husband,

my son's

my daughters-in-love

my grandchildren,

my pastors

my counselors

my psyche nurse

my friends

Life has not always been easy for me

I have dealt with things that no one should have to deal with

BUT

I am thankful that those who love and care about me

did not throw me out with the trash

or hang the phone up on me

or get so angry with me they walked away

I took suicide off the table,

out  of the room,

out of the building in 

January 2010.

Yet I have to say

there have been a couple of times since

that a tiny thought has come into my mind,

and then I remember the letters

my son's and their wives wrote me,

the letter Ron wrote me,

and the compassion and love

I felt from God

reminding me that I am never alone,

the phone calls, texts, messages

from friends and family

And I have seen how when a young person took his own life

affected his parents, his siblings, his friends

And I am reminded that

and

Suicide is something people choose

when they feel alone 

and unable to continue with life

for whatever reason

and I am reminded

My heart aches for 

Mr. Boudain's little girl

and all those knew him

So again,

if you are 

thinking life is not worth living for

please call someone,

call

call 911

call me

call someone