Puzzled

Do you ever think "yep, that's what I need to do." and then you read something in your Bible and then wonder "Am I doing what I need to do?" and then find yourself asking "But what about XYZ?"

If not, good for you 

because right now that is where I find myself.

I could not sleep,

tossed, turned, flipped over,

turned back the other way

and finally after over an hour

I just got up...

...thinking I need to talk to God.

And my devotion this morning was from 

Matthew 18:21~35

and it leaves me 

As I ponder and think 

about a specific situation

which has nothing to do with forgiveness

I wonder really what should I do.

People say

and then they don't do what they say 

they are going to do.

and then

I realize

and now I know

I am able to forgive someone

for not keeping their word,

for not following through on what they said they would do

but in life there are logical consequences to

actions people take or don't take

and so today

will be a hard day

but through it all

I know God is with me,

He knows what is right 

and what is wrong.

And I know what I need to do.

Yes it may be difficult

and the People Pleaser in me

hates to ruffle the feathers

sometimes

Tough Love

needs to happen.

So Lord I ask that you help me today,

to choose the right words,

to not get angry with others or myself

but to step out in faith

and know I am doing what I need to do.