It Doesn't Really Matter

It Doesn't Really Matter

~ it doesn't matter how hard I try

I FAIL

~ it doesn't matter what you do for others

IT'S NEVER ENOUGH

~ it doesn't matter 

~ it plain doesn't matter

And I am

DONE!!!

I am done trying to be strong

I am done trying to give the benefit of the doubt

I am done trying to follow the rules

WHY should I try to follow the rules ~

no one is held to the rules,

consequences are not given,

told one thing but then another happens or doesn't happen

I AM DONE!!!

You want a robot,

you got one

You want a BITCH

you have one

Ask politely someone to turn the TV down

get told IT IT - Hell I can't even hear myself think

Yes, I am pissed and I don't care who knows it

I am told I am not fair

HELL, LIFE IS NOT FAIR

Why have rules and expectations

It doesn't really matter

Do as you please, there will be no consequences

Oh how I could write more

but really what does it matter

Nothing will change

the game is bide my time,

let the chips fall where they may

guess when real life

kicks you in the ass

then you might pay attention.

I might be paying attention sooner than later!!!!!!!!!!!!